If you asked me 4 years ago if I'd be happy to know my thighs GREW an inch, the answer would absolutely be no. If you asked me that a year ago, the answer probably would have been the same. But I experienced a major body image change when I started working out with Whitney. Thanks Whit! All through high school and college and even after that for a while, my ultimate goal was seriously to look like a J. Crew model. I wanted a teeny tiny nonexistent butt. I was too stupid to accept that my wide hips would never allow my bum to get that small. And I was also too stupid to know that I had a nice butt already and could look even better if I focused more on strength training than losing weight.
But I was "young" and stupid. And 4 years ago I was really depressed (divorce) so not eating came easy. But I was running! Oddly enough, not eating much does not make you a very strong runner. You end up having conversations with people during 5k's.
Am I a J. Crew model yet?
Actual J. Crew model: Almost!
This is the first time you'll ever hear me admit to having had an eating disorder. I have admitted to being depressed, sure. But not to having a fundamentally jacked up view of what is healthy. But Laurie, you're still skinny! What's up with that? It is true that I'm still thin but I have put on at least 5lbs since that Skeletor picture above. And I eat like a horse. And check out the extra muscles on my legs!
Old Laurie: Oh no, not leg muscles! New Laurie: Oh yess!
Still I can't claim that I don't get a bit obsessive even now. But I've learned to love my body (and the extra inches on my legs) and I'm not afraid to look athletic. I don't want pecs to replace my boobs or anything (scary) and I no longer want to be a J. Crew swimsuit model either. Hooray!
Well, THAT was a long aside! What I'm trying to say is that coming from Kansas, where we have no mountains, there is no WAY I could have physically finished this race without all the strength training I've done over the past year. And I got the added bonus of a mental improvement too. When you see the women who toe the line at LT100, you realize this. You CAN NOT fake Leadville. There are no out of shape women there: either overweight or underweight. So coming in the bottom half (31st out of 53) of the women does not make me feel bad at all. These were all amazing, strong women!
Amazing like Junko and Amy! (Who both kicked my booty.)